I am destined to be old and bitter

Men are shallow and stupid. I looked at Match.com just for fun the other day and every guy described his ideal date as "slender," and "athletic and toned." Now I know I'm not fat, but I sure as heck ain't slender either! I'm hoping I can lose weight before I move to a new city. And hopefully I'll get this surgery that I talked to my Momma about. Then I can start all over. In a city where no one knows me. I'll make new friends, start a new job, live in a new house/apartment. A new life. I can be anything I want to be. I'll create a whole new persona and decorate my apartment with things that inspire me and reflect who I am. I don't know if I want to live with random roommates that I meet on Craig's list. I think I want to spend the extra money to have my own place. Who knows though....we'll see.