Since I have more time, I've been eating better and working out at the gym and I have time for a social life. I've met a cute boy thanks to University of Dreams Campus Marketing program. He did the LA program this summer and worked for Summit Entertainment, the people that filmed the Twilight movie!! He got to read the script and meet the cast. I'm totally jealous, of course I had no idea what Twilight was until about a month ago. I've finished reading all 4 books and I'm currently re-reading the entire series. I'm already halfway through book 4 for the second time. I just love the characters and the story line. It's so sweet and it makes me kind of depressed because I'm alone and feel like I will never find my own Edward Cullen. I mean obviously I can't find someone just like him because Vampires don't exist but he's just so perfect and selfless! haha. And I love the actor that plays him in the movie - Robert Pattinson. He is my celebrity obsession! You know sometimes I feel like I'm 13 trapped in a 21 year old's body. I am such a dork. My mom says that I am drawn to celebrities because of their ambition and talent. It's true, it's hard to find a college guy that has dreams and goals. It seems ironic because isn't that why you go to college? To get closer to achieving your dreams? For most people yes, but some people are clueless as to what they want to do with their lives and will end up going to college forever because they can't figure out what to do. And most college guys think they're too young to commit or settle down, they just want to have a good time so they don't want a serious girlfriend. I don't know why they assume that by dating someone exclusively it automatically ends their social life and any chance of having fun. I like my own space and my "me time" so I wouldn't be too needy. I have goals that I'm trying to achieve so I don't want someone standing in my way. I just want someone to share the good things with. I want to have someone to go to dinner with, or to cook dinner for. I love to cook and its more fun to cook for two! I want someone to watch movies with, to lay with me and just snuggle. I don't think that's asking for too much.
I just watched the movie Into The Wild and in the end Chris discovers that "happiness is not real unless it iis shared." And I believe that. I mean I can be happy alone, but it's better when you can share it with someone. By the way, I totally recommend Into the Wild! It's a really interesting journey with some interesting discoveries that he makes along the way. Plus lots of beautiful scenery.
I think I fantasize about dating a celebrity like Robert Pattinson because I admire his talent and his work ethic. I also think that because he works hard and has such talent that he would understand and respect my talent for singing and that he would be really supportive. And we could share in each others' successes. I know this sounds silly but I think that it could really work. If I can just get a song on the soundtrack of one of his movie's then maybe I could get a chance to meet him and I think we'd get along just great. At first I was having all of these wierd dreams about meeting John Mayer in Chicago and I thought that was a sign but John Mayer is known as a ladies man and a heartbreaker and I don't think I want to date a guy like that. And as much I would love to be the girl that he wants to change for, I've learned that people don't change easily and I don't want to deal with that.
And back to vampires - I started watching that new HBO serious True Blood and I'm hooked. I hate that the episodes are only a half hour and that they always end at really key moments but its an intruiging show.
Changing subjects - my mom is moving to Wisconsin in a few days! I'm so excited because I'm going up to visit her for Christmas! And my cousin Jessica is going up there for Christmas too so we'll get to hang out and have a white christmas and drink Leinenkugels and go ice skating. It's going to be amazing.
I felt like I had so much more to blog about but now I'm drawing a blank. I miss Megan and I wish she didn't live so far. I wish my cousin wasn't in California. I can't wait until she graduates so we can move to Chicago or Nashville together! I need to sing. I don't get the opportunity enough. If I move to Nashville I could sing all the time and hopefully get discovered somewhere. I guess I'm off to finish Twilight and to daydream about all of these things.
And one last note - GO NOLES! We're totally kicking ass in Jacksonville right now against Colorado! woohoo!
