The country music industry needs me!

So I had a great weekend finally - I went out to Bull's on Friday with Alex, Saturday we laid out by the pool, and later that night I partied with Kelly. Yesterday I was lazy and did nothing but today I worked and went to the gym.


Yesterday was also the Academy of Country Music Awards - ACM's. I have to say it really made me want to pack up and move to Nashville because I was so disappointed in the awards. There were only 3 new female vocalists and one of them was of course Taylor Swift who doesn't seem all that new anymore and of course she won because she won the CMA and CMT award of the same category this year! And then she performed and totally over-gimmicked her act. Start acoustic, tear of one outfit to reveal another, throw the guitar aside, then end in a waterfall? It had nothing to do with the song and I thought it was so annoying! Just as bad as Taylor was her BFF Kellie Pickler. Her song was stupid and she's not that great of a singer - she hasn't even had that many hits. Two songs that have been on radio and now this new one and I doubt her album is even platinum - in two years since her Idol debut. Not that impressive.

Speaking of Idols, Carrie Underwood won top female vocalist and had two performances. Her first one was ok, but I loved her second one with Brad Paisley in honor of Eddie Arnold. I do really like her but it upset me that she beat LeAnn Rimes because LeAnn is my idol, but LeAnn doesn't do as much touring and promotions as Carrie. Plus, LeAnn's already won a bunch of awards in her 10 years in the business so I guess it's no big deal.

Oh I forgot to mention my hatred for Jennifer Nettles but I won't even go into that. Garth Brooks was awesome and of course so was Keith! And that leads me to the biggest disappointment of all when Kenny Chesney got Entertainer of the Year for the 4th year in the row. I think Keith Urban deserved to be EOTY because he plays the piano, acoustic and electric guitar, and I think he may have even played harmonica a bit in his shows. He also is really great about making everyone feel like they have front row tickets by moving throughout the audience and having stages on both sides of the arena. He's just awesome and I feel like he deserves more credit!

I love country music and I think I could really fit in because they need more new female vocalists with a big voice. Carrie Underwood was great but she's not so new anymore. And Taylor and Kellie are just plain obnoxious and don't really have anything special about their voices. I can be sassy and fun with a big voice - Shania's sexiness, LeAnn's vocal style, and Kellie's sassiness. And I can dance! lol. So basically I think I may re-try for American Idol this year and for sure audition for next year's Nashville Star - hopefully next year I can get even further than this year!

Living with guys is annoying

So I am currently residing with two males - one has been my roommate for 2 years, he is gay and though I may not like aspects of his personality he is a tolerable roommate; the other is a temporary roommate - my previous roommate's ex-boyfriend! She is allowing him to stay here during this transitional period because he's about to move to SoFla and only needs a place to live for a few weeks. I don't think I would've agreed if he hadn't offered to pay both me and my other roommate $100 each. He's well-mannered and has good hygiene but I always feel like I'm babysitting him. He's a grown man but doesn't know how to do anything for himself. My former roommate dated him for 2 years and even after the break-up she continued to mother him and do things to help him out because he's either stupid or lazy....or perhaps a little of both.

At first it was amusing to watch these two guys do stupid stuff but now I'm just annoyed! Bryan, my roommate of 2 years, doesn't usually spend a lot of time at home but recently he has been more present around the house. He also decided to try cooking his own meals hoping that it would be healthier than eating out. However he is totally clueless on how to cook anything. The other day he made some 5 minute rice, then instead of cooking chicken he bought a bunch of packages of the precooked/prediced chicken to add to salads that you find with the sandwich meats. So he adds that chicken to the rice and I guess in lieu of a sauce he just poured ketchup on it and mixed it all together. It looked awful. He also makes a lot of beeny-weenie.

Bryan isn't the only one that doesn't know how to cook. Kamar, the temporary roommate, is equally as clueless. At least he cooks more appetizing meals but he does it all wrong. He eats a lot of chicken and yet has still not figured out how to cook it properly. He loves to grill it so the other day he grilled up a whole package of chicken cutlets. He told me that if I would like any, he had a bunch leftover in the fridge. However this chicken was almost impossible to cut through and it was really dry because he clearly overcooked it. It was crunchy on the outside and dry on the inside. I noticed he had cut into each cutlet during cooking to check the inside to make sure they were cooked through all the way. I thought maybe he cut them open too soon and that's why they ended up dry, because all of the juices leaked out of the cut. So I ask him when he cut the chicken open and he answers "after about 30 minutes." WTF? Boneless, skinless chicken cutlets should NEVER take 30 minutes to cook on a grill! No wonder they were burnt to a crisp. Not only does he overcook it but I can guarantee that he probably had the grill on too high of a heat setting as well because his thoughts on temperatures is also completely wrong. Today I caught him browning some ground beef to make burritos and the meat was sizzling like crazy and the steam was coming up in clouds from the pan. I asked him what heat setting he had the stove on and the burner was turned on as hot as it possibly could be. He says "it cooks faster this way." No, no, no - it dries the meat out and I don't think it was any quicker than they way I do it. I've never cooked anything on the highest possible heat.

Watching them cook is funny, but the clean-up isn't too funny. Between the two of them they produce a lot of dirty dishes but neither seem to know the proper way to load a dishwasher. This isn't funny because then I end up having to rearrange all of the dishes and I'm not even the one who made them! I miss Megan because her and I were on the same page. We loaded the dishes the same, we put them away in the same place every time, and we kept everything pretty clean and organized. Not to mention I always had someone to talk to and someone to hang out with. I don't really have a close relationship with either of these guys so I don't talk to them much or hang out with them at all. We don't have anything in common - a 21 yr old female, hetero, single college senior; a25 yr old ex-marine, single, hetero male; and a 24 yr old graduate, gay man who is in a relationship. It is an awkward mix of people and I will be glad when Kamar moves to SoFla and I'll be in Chicago soon enough, and when I get back from Chicago my friend Alex will have moved in to replace Megan! Yay for a girl roommate! haha.

Over it!

So for some reason this boy has got me all shook up but I'm officially over it now! I have spent the last 5 days obsessing over the awkward events that happened on Monday and now the stupid text messages that I've sent while drunk. I have no filter between my thoughts and my mouth, or should I say fingers since we communicate through texts. Which by the way I think is kind of lame, I wish he would've called at least once! haha. But anyways...none of this stuff matters anymore because him and I are not on the same page. He can't give me what I want or what I deserve and he just isn't that nice of a guy. So I've deleted his number from my phone so the temptation is no longer available. I'm over it and it feels good. I feel relieved. Now I need to focus on this internship! I still need to finalize all of the paperwork, yikes!

Chicago here I come! :-)

Summer is off to a slow start

After finals week ended I was excited for a summer of sun and fun...but things have gotten off to a rocky start. My last final was a huge presentation on the Friday of exam week and I stayed up for about 2 days straight finishing it. When I was done with the presentation I was so ready to go into a coma, but I barely got a 2 hour nap in before I had to get up and be social. My roommate was graduating with her masters degree the next day so her parents were in town and we were hosting a dinner party for her family and our friends. So we had a nice dinner and drank and played Cranium, it was a successful night. I had a good time, but I was exhausted. After a night of drinking and playing games, I wanted to sleep in but I had to be up early to attend the graduation ceremony. The rest of the weekend I spent either working or hanging out with my roommate and her family, going out to eat or to the bars and graduation parties. Then my roommate, my best friend, moved to New Hampshire on her 23rd birthday, only a few days after graduating with her masters. I was sad she was gone but I didn't have to work and had the house all to myself so I slept a lot! lol.

So once I caught up on my sleep, the fun could begin! Or so I thought. Since I had run myself down so much during finals, my immune system was weak and I ended up with a horrible cold! My nose has been running and I've been coughing. I don't have a lot of energy so I've just been laying around the house when I haven't been at work. Then I discover this weird bite or something on my stomach and I have no idea what it is but it won't go away. Turns out I caught ringworm at the gym.

Then I think I've finally got something to be excited about - a cute boy that's been texting me nonstop. He finally comes over to my house to hang out and things didn't quite go as expected. It was an awkward hookup that left me very disappointed. I wish I could go back and re-do it but it's too late now. I feel like these things always happen to me too. I am cursed.
Right now I'm just hoping to get through the next few weeks. At the end of May I am going back to my hometown for my brother's high school graduation and I'll get to spend some time at the beach. Then I'll be back in Tally for a week and then I'm done with Sunglass Hut and I'm having a big party and then back to Merritt Island for a bit before I finally leave for Chicago!!!!!
I can't wait to get to Chicago! I'm just counting down the days until I leave for this internship. Hopefully I can make the best of these next few weeks and have a good time.

Boys are lazy

So I've decided that the majority of males are lazy when it comes to dating! (I would say all, but I know there are some exceptions) And I can't say that this is all their fault. There are so many girls out there with low self esteem and such low standards for themselves that they put out with little or no effort from the guy. I am no slut and I expect a guy to work for this prize. I think very highly of myself and I have high standards for the guys I decide to date. If you think I'm so awesome then you shouldn't mind having to put a little work into a relationship. But it's like that saying "why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?" Why would a guy take time taking me out on a date and trying to be witty and impressive when he can go to a bar and pick up a girl who's willing to have sex for nothing in return? I have never been on a proper date where the guy picks me up from my house, treats me to something (dinner, ice cream, a movie, ANYTHING!), and then at the end of the night takes me home and walks me to my door and kisses me goodnight. I don't think that this is too much to ask, but apparently for some guys it is! This angers me to no end.
I also hate when guys say things and then don't back it up. If you tell me that you want to hang out and get to know me then when I invite you to hang out with me, I would expect you to say yes. It seems strange that when you finally get this invite to hang out with me, you suddenly decide that you would rather go out to the bar with your buddies. That's just strange to me. Actions speak louder than words and if you don't come over when you finally get the invite, I immediately assume you were lying when you said you wanted to hang out.

This is why I usually turn guys down before I even get to know them. I hate being disappointed by stupid boys that don't seem to get it. So I put don't trust guys and I usually push them away and that way I never have to get hurt. But I realize that I need to give someone a chance, and I need to let someone in otherwise I'm never going to find a boyfriend or future husband. And the moment I decided to let some of my walls down, this guy decides to change his tune and now he's MIA. Whatever. I give up.

In the beginning....

So thanks to my creative strategy class, I've become a blog addict. Journals and diaries are so 3rd grade but I like to write my thoughts and ideas down so I can reflect and learn from my experiences....and let's face it, I spend so much time on this darn computer anyway, why not find another reason to be on here for hours? haha.

Stay tuned to read about all of the crazy things that go on in my life and the thoughts that go through my head. Because we're not in Oz anymore, Toto....this is real life!